Growing up, Kai Bennu was taunted for skin dark as midnight and his otherworldly appearance. They called him Nightmare, but Alec Vasilios, a wealthy and powerful businessman, wants to call Kai his own. Kai’s past has left him with little trust in others and even more reluctance to surrender himself to Alec’s power. With both men harboring supernatural secrets, finding common ground won’t come without sacrifice.
Alec stops by to talk to us today about what he had to overcome that he didn’t expect to be an issue. I love his response. You can feel the depth of his emotions toward Kai in what he has to say. Read and enjoy!
Since I’ve all but demanded Kai talk, I’ll have to be the example. He’s rather…difficult. Therein lies the answer to this question.
The hardest thing to overcome that I didn’t expect to be an issue? Kai. I have always been in control, the one in power. Perhaps it’s my abilities as a nelapsi. Perhaps it’s simply the strength of my will, but I’ve never had to bend to the expectations of others, to subject myself to another’s desire. With Kai, I’m unable to simply command him to do anything. In fact, he possesses me both in mind and body. The extent of his ownership of my heart is unfathomable, and I’m left in awe.
From the day I first saw him as a youth getting off of a school bus, I was enthralled with his beauty and the way he impacted those around him. He’d tried so hard to be invisible and could not. It would have been an impossible feat, and while others feared him, I wanted to know him, for him to know me.
Now, I have all that I could ever have wanted. I have the man I love, but I don’t rule him. He doesn’t bow to me, worship me as my race was centuries ago. He does not fear me as that worship later turned on us drawing fanatics far and wide feverishly intent on ridding the world of evil.
Kai Bennu loves me, and I revel in it, am overwhelmed by it and celebrate it. Would it be better if he did as I said? I would have to be honest with myself, honest with him and say no. I would say the very same if he were not sitting next to me, my hand tightly held in his palm, his powerful arm wrapped around my body, the heat of his flame singing my skin, letting me know just how alive I am. I’m alive not because of him but because of us.
Perhaps it’s not overcoming Kai that I needed. It was realizing how much I needed him to overcome me, for us to share our strength and be more powerful together.
They never asked him his name. They ran from his shadow. He was alone. Always alone. He was Nightmare.
To me he was everything I wanted. To me, he was beautiful. I needed to run my fingers along his skin, to cherish him. In the heat of the blazing sun, I wanted to taste his sweat. I wanted him beneath me, a part of me, a part of my soul. He didn’t frighten me. He entranced me. He called to me.
Deja Black had fantasies of men loving men, men who felt strongly, loved hard, and needed a hero. Then one great day she came across a book and discovered the world of m/m writing, encountered others who shared her obsession as much as she did, and found a world where she could not only be accepted for the lives and loves she envisioned, but she could create them too. So why not? Why not take the stories she would write and throw away as a teenager, grow them, dream them, and make them a reality where she could know her own characters, let them live their story, and make them real for someone else? And she did. Now, with the support of her hubby and some intense time management, she is learning to balance her family of two energetic children and a very needy shitzu at home along with the many students she teaches each and every day with her passion of writing what she loves to read.
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